“ if you don’t give a shit then why did you ask in the first place , ” lisa countered , though a curve of a smile pressed upon her lips . she wasn’t a thief and she wanted him to know that , to trust her actions . “ they’re an out – should the day ever come . that’s why i have them . ”
it wasn’t a plan she wanted to initiate , but should the day come , lisa wanted to go out on her own terms instead of being left to the walking corpses to devour .
“ i was in three little groups before i found the saviors – or before they found me , ” lisa told him , revealing a part of her life that she hadn’t told many , “ the first group , it was a good group of people – nice people , but … this world wasn’t made for them . the guy that was in charge , he lost his daughter to one of the dead . he was a good talker – better than negan if you can believe it – and somehow he managed to convince more than half the group that death was better than fighting just to survive . it’s not the happiest story , but … well , that’s where i got the oxy from . ”
lisa forced herself to look from eric . not even negan knew the story of how she had watched so many suffer while only a few stood by in a mixture of disgust and uselessness . how was one to save people from a decision that did not concern them ?
“ the leader was the second – and the last – person i killed . it was a mercy kill , but still – i put the bullet in his head , ” a pause , “ negan doesn’t even know that story .”
eric ROLLED HIS EYES as lisa called out his faux d i s i n t e r e s t . maybe he did give a shit . but just a l i t t l e one . a TURD at best . stress && fear had him wanting nothing more than to BE A BRAT , to act like a child in hopes that someone would realize he needed help , he couldn’t handle it on his own , someone needed to step in but before any forced temper tantrums could take place , lisa had his ear .
her reasons for having the pills on hand were … not what he expected , && the story that followed was just as unexpected , but her w i l l i n g n e s s to share was APPRECIATED . if only for a few moments it kept his mind off of what was happening , what was TRULY important , && it also left eric feeling as though he wasn’t the most vulnerable ( conscious ) person in the room . it wouldn’t last long , sooner or later aaron would s h i f t && the world would f a l l a p a r t all over again ; but for the time being , lisa’s story-corner was a nice ESCAPE . ❝ that’s fucked what about the other two ?? when did you leave them ?? ❞
